Since childhood, an unspoken longing stirred within me — a search without name or direction, a thirst I could not quench. It was only upon receiving Deeksha in the Shaktipat lineage, under the luminous guidance of Guruma Roshni Ji, that the veil of avidya began to dissolve. In her presence, ignorance melted like mist before the rising sun, and the knots of the mind gently loosened. 

Worldly ambitions, once enticing, now fade into silence. Hobbies and social attachments lose their grip, replaced by a sweet preference for simplicity, solitude, and the boundless expanse of inner exploration. What once seemed pointless now reveals itself as the hidden call of the soul — answered through the grace of Guruji, who turned my restless seeking into serene awakening.

When my Shaktipat started, suddenly I began to smell a very sweet fragrance, just like sandalwood. Then my eyes started blinking very rapidly, and it felt as if a very strong energy was coming from above and falling onto my body. After some time, I started feeling scared. It felt as if someone was sitting beside me. I could hear whispering, rain like sounds, and knocking sounds, but all of it was very subtle. Then my thighs started hurting intensely and my legs became completely numb. I felt heat throughout my entire body...it felt like I was sweating, but not a single drop of sweat actually came out. After that, I started feeling sensations in my heart area, like something was moving in a circular way, and while rotating it was moving upward toward my throat. It felt as if something was dripping from my throat.

Pranaam everyone. I am trying to recall the exact moment when I requested Guruma to bless me with Shaktipat Diksha, but I am unable to recall those moments. It seems to me that Guruma has always been there holding my hands and guiding through the maze of illusion that is Maya. This life of mine may have some date and time when Shaktipat kriya happened to me by Guruma , but I am certain that she has been guiding me in previous life too. My current situation is such that I am unable to recollect my past memories and most of the times I remain in present. 

There are various kriya's and blessings that may be happening to me but the most important thing happening to me is that I am losing myself and in the process of losing I am gaining the presence of Guruma . Every where I look, Guruma is there. In all forms, in all living things. She is in winds, she is in oceans, she is in all the nature. I get the feeling that she is parvati. She manifests to me in the form of akka mahadevi and lalleshwari. I always feel that she is with me everywhere. I do not know whether I am coherent enough to explain all of you, my exact condition. But I am blessed that she is there. Thank you Guruma for embracing me in your aura. I am the most fortunate being in your existence.

Pranam sabhi ko 🙏🙏 

Saktipat k samay pahle khoob royi aur jo aas paas log the jinhe mein mehsoos kar Rahi thi unse narazgi bhare swar me kaha ki kyo itni der se aaye.. kyo mujhe itne din door rakha apne se.. jaise hum unhe phle se jante ho..fir kuch min baad aisa lga kahi aur hi kisi duniya me lekar chale gaye jaha barish ki awaaz.. chidiyao ki chehchahat..ghante ki awaaz.. tounge ka roll hokar talu par lagna.. hmesha ek mehek mere aas paas Baras rhii thi.. poori body vibrate ho rahi thi..1 ghante baad aisa lga jaise guru maa sakshaat samne aakar boli Anita ji ab uth jaye .. love you guru maa jo aapne mujhe chuna... lakh lakh shukriya maa🙏🙏 

Rough translation using Google translate

Greetings to all 🙏🙏

At the time of Shaktipat, I cried a lot and in an angry tone asked the people around me, asking why they were so late, why they kept me away from them for so long, as if I knew them from the beginning. Then, after a few minutes, it felt like they took me to some other world where the sound of rain, the chirping of birds, the sound of bells, the rolling of the tongue and hitting my head, there was always a scent lingering around me, my entire body was vibrating. After an hour, It felt as if Guru Maa came in front of me in person and said, Anita ji, please get up now… I love you Guru Maa, for choosing me… Many many thanks Maa. 🙏🙏

I would like to express my deep gratitude for my benevolent Guru maa who accepted me to give Shaktipat Diksha. At the time of diksha I had not undergone any unusual or strange experience but few months after my diksha I witnessed few divine experiences which are out of this world experience, where logic cannot be applied.

One day Guru maa told us to sit for Sadhana at 5:00 a.m. in the morning as there was another Shaktipat Diksha ..after half an hour as I went to bed to sleep again I felt my body rose 7 to 8 inches from the bed. Twice it happen. It was a divine experience. After few days I had foreseen an accident that took place the next day. I was shocked. Since my Shaktipat Diksha I have become so much emotional. I can't see anyone in pain. I start crying and there is always itching sensation at the top of my head.

Completed 2 years of Sadhan yesterday. Thanks to Shakti Mata, Guru parampara and my Gurumata specially for all encouragement, knowledge, for correcting me from time to time and for the initiation into the process. This soul will always be thankful to you my Gurumata and I am always obliged to you !! 💐💐

I had an extremely pleasant and calming experience during the Initiation and I could experience energy flowing through out my body and specially the backbone area. While there were few sensations around third eye region and top of the head, I could hear a divine sound or melody, almost the entire time coming from the right side. 

For me, it started almost 2 - 3 days before the actual Initiation date. I could sense someone has started raising Kundalini energy and I could feel tingling & vibrations in my spine. I hardly slept the night before the Initiation as I kept seeing unfamiliar faces in dreams, who were blessing me and trying to guide me, but I can't recollect much of what was said. 

I stayed super energetic and blissful for many days after the Initiation ceremony was complete. Thank you Guruma and the Divine Shakti for the initiation into the path.

Pranam Guru Maa, Thank you from the bottom of my heart for the Shaktipat Deeksha. When I started to focus on your image and chant the mantra, instead of your image, Lalleswari Maa kept appearing. Although I tried to force myself to refocus on your image, I was pulled into Lalleswari Maa’s life. I saw her meditating in different locations and was shown that you and she are one and the same.

Then, Sri Yogananda Swamy appeared from a different dimension and blessed me. Before I began the meditation, when I asked for blessings from all the Gurus, he hugged and blessed me like a father.

At one point, I began coughing for a while. I felt energy vibrating at my Mooladhara and a sharp pressure in my upper abdomen that moved up to my heart. My heart became very heavy and I started to cry, though there were no specific emotions attached to it. I also transitioned into many of my past lives.

After some time, a female voice asked me to stop my meditation. The energy was so intense that I didn't want to stop and tried again to focus on your image, but the female voice asked me to stop immediately, saying it was too much for me as the energy was getting stronger. My legs then started to cramp. When I checked the time, exactly 35 minutes had passed beyond the meditation time you had given. Thank you for the wonderful deeksha Guru Maa 🥰🪷✨️Pranam.🙏